Well it went neither as good nor as bad as it could have gone. She didn't exactly play the friends card, but my suspicions were verified and she is seeing someone in a long distance relationship. But the impression I got from her was that she was impressed I had worked up the courage to ask her out, and I think she views me in a different light. Plus the friendship is still intact, and that's always a good thing.

I kept it very casual the whole time, and when she couldn't think of anything to say I just said "well it isn't as though we're mourning the death of anything here" and chuckled, and after that things were back to normal. I still think there's a possibility for a relationship here, but not right now. Plus I think I may have planted the "seed" of possibility in her mind, so maybe she'll give a relationship with me some more serious thought and who knows what the future may bring.

For now, I'm happy to count her among my friends, if nothing else (again... fow now XD)
Man... I'm just the eternal optimist today, aren't I?

~M.S.

"Once more into the breach, dear friends. Once more."
~William Shakespeare, Henry V
¶ 9:10 AM

Well I figured that since pretty much no one reads this blog, aside from 1 or 2 friends, it would be a safe place to vent a little to try to get a couple of things off my mind.

Basically I'm nervous as *tries to think up a clever analogy.... fails.* hell let's just say I'm really really nervous and it's just no damned fun. I'm nervous because I have to ask this girl from my Psychology class out on Valentines day (I "have" to because I decided if I couldn't do it then, I probably never could) and that's LESS THAN A WEEK AWAY now. Lol. I sincerely hope that the female readers of this blog (all 2-3 of you) can understand how much mental stress the prospect of asking a woman out puts on a guy. Its down-right scarey to put oneself out there like that, to be perfectly honest.

Especially when there's the possibility of them pulling the "friend" card. I loathe and despise the term "just be friends". To that end, I'm already "friends" with her, and frankly I want more out of the relationship, so I'm honestly not sure if her pulling the "friends" card would depress me, or just piss me off. I'm sure that wouldn't help the situation, but that's just how much I hate the "friends" card (if my bitterness doesn't give me away; I've had that "card" used on me acouple of times before and it SUCKED)

Oh well..... nothing ventured, nothing gained, right?

I'll put up a post on Velentines Day one way or the other and let you curious people know how it went.

Bai.
~M.S.

"To do anything truly worth doing, I must not stand back shivering and thinking of the cold and danger, but jump in with gusto and scramble through as well as I can."
~Og Mandino
¶ 4:57 AM